maf smaley entry post xcm biase cz campur ngn penat + letih + xde modal.kirenya nie post smbungan dpd smaley erh wlaupun tjuknya laen,,but ad kaetan laa.erm knangan trindah yg dmksudkan adlah knangan ddalam dwan yg mn bperang tuk SPM.yes,its taun2 sblom nie lam dwan gk tp cbran yg nie lbih bsar bbnding taun2 lpas..rentetan SPM :-
bfore SPM....aty smakin risau gundah gelana mmikirkan SPM yg bkal mnjelang,,kkdg trase ''aii btul k taun nie aku da nk SPM???''still not blieve it,but its a fact!myb prasaan tuu tbe cz psiapan mental & fzikal bloam siap spenuhnya.smakin dkat nk xm smakin btambah krunsingan + pnyakit kmalasan.ncib baek ktika munculnya pnyakit kmalasan tuu,ttbe mai plak keinsafan...''eh bella,,kaba2 jgn dk malas taun nie taun pntim...rjin2knlaa dri anda''.hu3.tringat plak kate2 smgt & nasihat dpd orang yg lbih bpengalaman abg2ku,senior-sis ftimah etc n bla3.wlaupapepn kmalasan k bgai ttap kne rjin,wlau xbsdia pn ttap kne bsdia n hdapinya.tiada alsn yg munabsh kn tuk jd malas,tuk jd xbsdia...
mjelang &ktika SPM....a week b4,alhmdulillah pnyakit malas tuu dpat diatasi cz ksdaran & keinsafan mnjelma.a day b4,,ttbe hati nie ase cam Ya Allah,tkutnya aku nk hdapi nie...stdy mmg r stdy tp still ase runsim yg tramat shinggalaa dpat call dpd orang jauh,sis ftimah thank u so much cz da bg smngt that mornim b4 xm.so smpai dskolah ilmu yg tlah dbekal + smngat + nsihat dpd ibu bpa xpecially,abg2,tecers & kftimah,,dri nie smakin stabil asenya dpd sblom2 nie.wlaupun gmuruh n cm2 prasaan ag trase bile tringt blk apa yg dbekalkan td,smngt blk.hu3 n cmtuu r spnjg xm.1st & 2nd day (bm&bi) okeylaa insya'Allah.tbe laa sbjct yg mbuatkan aku btmbah risau SEJARAH,,huh apa yg bmaen dlm benak fkiran nie xlaen & xbukan ''eh boleh k aku jwb soklan sjrah nie???mmpukah aku?ingt k hk aku baco & hafal smue fkta2 pntim tuu??n plbgai ag laa''.strusnya mggu k2 xm aduyai gap ad 3days je b4 xm tuu sbjct plak berat2 gk tuk mggu k2 nie (math,psi,+math & science).smlaman b4 math,struggle gk r ~b4 xm mmg da struggle da cume kurang kyakinan n ad lg prlu dstrugglekan~that nite i wnt to say thanks to my bro,sein trime kasih byk sbb being my tecer a nite b4 mth..hu3.the most sad day is ari xm math r,bkpo plak?cz paper1.bile pngwas ckap ''mase hny tnggal 5mnit''!.hohoh tyme tuu r trase bgai nk mnangis pn ad cz still ad about 5soklan yg bloam djwab so apelagi,,kuarkan pluru anda n tpksa temboks!huhu...kuar je dwan mmg ase frust + sdih + seumpamanya.da r math nie trut same lam list sbjct yg aku xkuasai.emosi tuu kne tahan lu tuk cntinue for paper2..alhmdulillah paper2 xssusah paper1,,dpat jwb gk r nk smpat mse ~blajar dr ksilapan~..that day gk bile kuar dwan,laen dr hari sblomnya...blk umah xdpat nk kwal prasaan nie,,so lpas je laa.hu3..+plak bile sein,mama n abe lie tny,''kak guano??math td bley k x?''.aku juz diam n no idea nk jwb ape.diorg pn bg smgt blk ''bnde da lpas xsoh dk pk laa,,hdap hk nk hdap plak''.wktu tuu mkin sdih pn ad sbb xtau nape...tharu myb!so on laa tuk sbjct yg kn dtg.~maflaa tlalu pjg lau nk cter dr A to Z,,hu3.~juz cter ari2 yg mnyedihkan,,ad lg sbenarnya cume that day yg aku cter is the most r.last day SPM,,ase xcited pn ad da nk abis nie..wlaubgaimmnpun ttap bt spuasnya tuk sbjct ec0nomy,insya'Allah.bile da tmat xm,,alhmdulillah3,syukran Ya Allah krana da bg ksihatan dr sg fzikal & mntal..bg pluang kpdku utk hbiskan pprangan nie.blk umah fmily btnya ''cmner td,econmy breh k x?''.kate driku ''insya'Allah,,sbgaimana kate maher zain.hu3''.mlm tuu,,trus updte fb.he4.
a day after SPM : on9 fb,ym n bla3..smstinya soklan panas mse tuu ''bella,abis dah SPM,,guano breh blako k??''..jwpnku spti biase r,,sbgaimn kate maher zain.ritu gk ayh ku mbenarkan kn dri nie tuk prgi mlpaskn tnsion nie,g kota bharu ng mama.a day b4 ag,,mama dk ryt kak abis xm nie g kb deh ng mama...huk3.
prasaan after spm??hnya Allah yg mgetahuinya....kate2 yg ku pgang skunk
''kakak,,xsoh dk pk laa hk kte jwb tuu...kte usaha dh sbaek mgkin,seroh k Allah blako..twakkal,,hk pntim loni lpas usaha gkk smaye hjat tuu jgn tnggal..''kate ayh.
''kakak,,self confidence!!!buat2 dh,,xsoh dk pk gpo hk kte bley pahni..twkkal,doa & smaye hjat..''kate mama.
ksimpulannya,,knangn SPM tdak dlupakan.sgala nsihat,smngt,tnjuk dpd ayh & mama xpecially,gru2,fmily,orng yg bpengalaman snior2 iaitu kftimah etc n yg laen~maf tdak dsbut,tlalu rmai tuk dkire~appreciate it so much!!!tq,tq & tq.jsamu tdak dpat ku balas...cume hdiah yg plg bmkne adlh doa buatmu.da tlalu pjg krgn utk hari nie...skian shj dr Nik Bella,thanks again kpd yg dsbut td.jd dri & jg amal, -wslm-
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